A desire I hope to soon be fulfilled

Once again I find myself aching to be with Christ, to have my sanctified body, removed from the world which is ruled by sin. But I realize that in the Lord's good and perfect and acceptable will His timing is best. I sat down to do my devotions this morning in the book of Philippians reading about Christ humbling Himself and further on about Timothy, whom Paul wants to send to the Philippian believers, because Timothy does not desire exaltation and praise of man 2:19-24 and Epaphroditus a real man who was "full of heaviness" (vs. 26) because the Philippian believers caught wind of the fact that he was "sick unto death" (27). I think of what Paul wrote to Timothy in his second epistle to him in 1:7,8. Timothy had every reason to be afraid in the human mindset. The ruler of that time was impaling christians in the colosium as lighting for the evening games, which was also a mass slaughter of Christians. To be bold held a new meaning, well to us it does, but frankly this was the way the times were during their lives. I struggle with boldness and all I face would be a debate or ridicule. I still long for the day when Christ raptures His people, when the blessed hope of the Church comes. I long for the day of the appearing of the Lord "Behold what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knowth us not, because it knew him not. Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that when He shall appear, we shall like him; for we shall see him as he is. And every man that hath this hope in him purifieth himself even as He is pure." 1John 3:1-3 But I am here right now according to God's perfect will and timing and He would have me stand in boldness of the Holy Spirit and bring hope to a dying world lost in bondage to sin. I must be real like Timothy and Epaphroditus and Paul, and I must carry on even though I long to be free.